On July 21st, 2006, four years ago today, my beloved daddy died. In the spring of 2007, just a few months later, I started blogging. The two things are inextricably linked.
After several months of mentally curling up into a ball and wanting not to be … I needed a place to think what I was thinking; to feel what I was feeling; and to question what I was questioning.
This blog became that for me … and more:
- It helps me be who I am and become who I am becoming
- It helps me to feel what I feel
- It helps me question what I believe and remember what I know
- It takes me deeper into myself; into God; into living
In a way … it saved (and is saving) my life.
Maybe you think that’s a bit dramatic, a bit over the top … but what I was doing in the latter months of 2006 wasn’t living … it was existing, marking time. And who knows how long that limbo would have lasted, but my very good friend and spiritual mentor, Jon, suggested that I take up blogging – and I started writing …
- and talking
- and praying
- and responding
- and feeling
- and healing
And even these days, from this healthier place, the weeks and months when I don’t have time (or think I don’t have time) to write, I start to free fall back into that half-life … existing without living.
** This post is an entry in the can writing keep us well – group project hosted by Confident Writing.
August 8, 2010 at 4:43 am
Anna, thanks so much for sharing this deeply personal experience, but also the ways writing can help us to be more fully ourselves, to feel more fully alive.
Thank you.
August 9, 2010 at 2:06 am
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